Part of me

I really tried everything
To get out of this spell
But it’s all like adding salt to red wine
It cannot clean the stains
It’s like salt in my wounds
And it’s not gonna end 

Nothing’s gonna help me 
If I don’t want to 
Nothing’s getting better 
If I don’t take the step 

And you watch me drowning 
Cause you see something I ignore 
Take me, shake me, wake me up 
I can’t do it anymore 

I can’t help it, I can’t even choose 
It’s part of me, controlling me 
But I can’t get out of my shoes 

Stick my head into the sand 
And hope it will pass by 
That someone grubs me out 
And tells me that it’s over 

Life goes on 
And things will be alright somehow 
But is this what I really want? 

I cannot move 
I’m stuck on doubt 
I really wanna change 
But I’m afraid of losing ground 

From time to time 
I think it’s kind of funny 
That I act that crazy 
But I can’t laugh about it 

Cause I see how you worry 
And how much you wanna care 
But it’s under my skin 
And it will always be there 
It’s the other side of me 
My second personality 
Believe me, 
I’m sorry for the things I do 
And I hurt myself by hurting you 

Lisa