Ana & I

Door Stephanie

when we first met
I was in trouble..
you helped me trough the rough times
and I didn’t feel so sad..
you stood me by
and became my best friend..

I knew you were there for me,
no matter what..
people didn’t understand..
you were so wrong..
but that little detail
I totally forgot..

our sweet friendship turned into love & hate..
you didn’t want to leave
even though I prayed
do I really want you to?
confusing…obsession

how the hell do i get rid of you

people warned me at first..
I didn’t see the danger,
was I so confused?
Now I feel sad and alone
even though you are still here..
things are not right,
I think it’s time for you to go home..

maybe we never had goodtimes..
maybe you were just a little bit better,
than all the other bullshit i went through..
maybe my closest friend is my worst enemy..
maybe everyone is right and I was so wrong..

this is my battle
and i’m ready to fight..
this is my life
right here..right now ..
this is the moment
to stand up and face the truth..

no more excusses
no more avoiding
no more holding back

facing myself in the mirror
I see only me..
ready to let go of the thing,
that was always there for me
or was it just with me …
it scares me, but i know i’m strong
stronger than i was before..

talking about you
helps me see
that “our thing” wasn’t normal
not ment to be..

sometimes you’re better off alone
even when its rough to let go..
it took me 7 years
to realize that this was not me..
7 years to see that this was not
how life was supposed to be..

so goodbye ana,
things can change
people can go on
so let me be me
proud to be myself
and finally free